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About Me Member Deviant of Many Talents DemonicSuicide18/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 5 Years
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Fuck this world...

Fri Dec 14, 2007, 9:31 PM
Honestly, right now, I wish I was dead....

This apostasy thing isn't going as I planned and I ended up hurting people I care about because of it. A smack here, a beat-down there. It's all good, right? I mean, they were shoving it down my throat and making me miserable so I might as well have killed them, no? I'm doing the right thing, aren't I? If I can't be true to even myself anymore, what the fuck am I doing here....?

My guitar doesn't even cheer me up anymore, I'm living a lie I never knew was a lie until it smacked me in the fucking face, the antidepressants aren't really working (I'm supposed to not feel much for a month, but it still isn't doing any good of late), I'm hurting my friends, family, and most of all, now more than ever, myself. Death is falling around me once again and this coming holiday/month, I'll be reminded of the worst....

Honestly, I wish I was dead...

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  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: My heartbeat
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Despair
  • Drinking: My suffering and self-loathing

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  • Current Residence: If I believed in Hell.....this would be it!
  • Interests: Horror Movies (particularly The Exorcist), virtually every kind of Metal (music), writing/reading
  • Favourite movie: The Exorcist
  • Favourite band or musician: Behemoth/Dimmu Borgir/Satyricon/Cradle of Filth/Cannibal Corpse/Dethklok/too many others to list
  • Favourite genre of music: Black Metal/Death Metal/Metal of any and all kinds
  • Favourite artist: A lot... lol :p
  • Favourite poet or writer: Edgar Allen Poe/Stephen King
  • Favourite style of art: Dark/Disturbing
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • MP3 player of choice: Any kind as long as it works...but I prefer my Zune! :D
  • Wallpaper of choice: The Apostasy Wallpaper/Any Behemoth or just Metal Wallpaper
  • Favourite game: Dance Dance Revolution/Guitar Hero/Kingdom Hearts/Anything Star Wars
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2/XBOX
  • Favourite cartoon character: Dethklok/Dr. Rockso/Facebones (Metalocalypse)
  • Personal Quote: "Demonspawn, you're a FAILURE!!!!!"
  • Tools of the Trade: Zune, PAINT.net, Photoshop, toy blood-spattered bone-axe that Daniel gave me! :)

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Mood: Jolly ~FantasyStockAvatars Dec 12, 2007, 9:52:38 PM
Thank you :hug: for the +fav in my avatar/stamp gallery!!

:alienxmas: Happy Holidays! :holly:

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~DemonicSuicide Dec 14, 2007, 9:34:03 PM
You're welcome

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~GiusRivas Nov 16, 2007, 10:10:06 AM
Hi thenks for the fav!!!
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~DemonicSuicide Nov 16, 2007, 5:42:26 PM
You're welcome! :)

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~infernosilver Oct 22, 2007, 8:56:37 AM
hey there, thanks very much for your :+fav:s on the "Death Metal Holocaust" images, I appreciate it. :horns:

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~DemonicSuicide Oct 22, 2007, 4:24:01 PM
no prob! I'm a metalhead and listen to nearly all sub-genres of it, but prefer Black and Death Metal! :D

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~infernosilver Oct 22, 2007, 7:31:06 PM
awesome - i'm a major metalhead myself. i've been working on a similar image for black metal bands, so i hope you'll enjoy that one as well. hails!!! \m/

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~DemonicSuicide Oct 24, 2007, 5:49:13 PM
I will. ;p lol Heils! \m/ >.< \m/
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~LainDragon Aug 7, 2007, 5:01:08 PM
thanks for the :+fav:!!!! :D

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